Thursday, October 28, 2010

It’s happening again…

22 HCG ten days past transfer. It’s cruel really. The last pregnancy in February the one that dragged on for six weeks before the D&C started with a 34. It almost seems like a joke to go through this again - to be in the "you're not negative but your positive is really sucky" place. I’m trying to go with it. Hope for the best but really, the whole thing is like, F*#$ this is happening again. Would like for it to be over quickly one way or another. We are going out of town this weekend so I wont even be able to do a blood test until Monday.

So there we are. Once again. Waiting in limbo, not really anywhere. Still so grateful for all that we have balanced by this is just totally crappy news and I feel stuck.

5 comments:

Joy said...

That is very crappy. I have not experienced that particular flavor. I hate that you have to wait so long for resolution. No advice, just hopes that you come through it okay and at peace with it.

Sue said...

I'm so sorry you don't have a more definitive answer right now. Sending you virtual hugs.

Summer said...

Crap! Not again.

I wish I had some comforting words but I have been through limbo enough to know that there is no comfort to be found there. Just know whatever happens we will be here for you.

Silver said...

Oh yes - been there too! I would tell you hopeful stories about low betas leading to successful pregnancies, but a) you'll have heard them already and b) they're only ever any good if they actually apply to YOU. Hoping for resolution for you soon.

Roccie said...

I am so sorry. Not knowing is the worst kind of torture.

I would guess it is especially painful for you with DE. They really are presented as the silver bullet, aren't they? The 'final choice but the sure choice' is what we want to believe.

I am so very sorry to see you in this place.