Knock on wood

second scan was good. we heard a heartbeat...as my husband said yesterday "i think im finally giving myself permission to be happy but i want to knock on wood anyway."

all i can say is that as scary as the scan is for us given our previous history with pregnancy scans it would be A THOUSAND TIMES SCARIER if this pregnancy was with my eggs.

the knowledge that the odds are we were given a healthy egg from a proven donor makes an enormous difference. this is something we thought about when we took the decision to go with DE -- that knowing we'd be using healthy eggs meant the fear factor would go down enormously. and it has.

of course, because i always have to say this: anything can happen.

for now all is well.